Daughters of Divine Providence :)

So today was my visit with the Daughters of Divine Providence.

Their convent is so beautiful. I felt so at peace and calm being there, also it is just right down the road from The Abbey. Which is another great thing :)

Sister Barbara and Sister Bernadette are amazing women. I learned alot from them today and about myself. I have alot of growing and learning left to do.

I know that God will make things happen in stages, and not all at once. I feel sooooooo much calmer about my discernment now.

I feel about peace about telling my dad about my discernment and my decision to enter the convent when the time will come. I know that this is something i am called to do, and am going to do it to the best of my ability.

I love learning about Catholicism and different orders. It is all so beautiful to me.

I would love to fall more in love with The Church.

I am at peace with my decision of discernment.

Even though lately i find myself more boy crazy than ever.

Why God? Why? Ahhhhh!!!!

peace to you.

Love and prayers always.

Easter :)

Alleluia! He is Risen!

Christ has conquered death through God! God has prevealed over sin and death.

We thank him today for our life and our life, we must hope and pray that we too will live with Him in glory one day!

Today is not about presents, chocolates, Easter Bunny. Today is all about God and His prevealing over death.

God has blessed me with peace today. I am at peace with my decision to discern my vocation. I feel called to religious life, but that may not be where God is calling me.

I have hope that God will lead me in the right direction.

I look to the saints and their lives for inspiration - St. John of the Cross, St. Teresa Benedicta of the Cross, St. Alphonsus Liguori, St. Catherine of Siena, St. Maximillian Kolbe, St. Teresa of Avila, St. Therese of Lisieux, John Paul II the Great - pray for us!

life and its choices.

I need to make my choices based on my soul and my desire and drive to get to Heaven at some point.

I want to pursue God and discern my vocation, no matter what that may be.

I am open to life as a married woman, a single woman, or a religious woman.

I'm tired of making my decisions based on what others say.

I'm aggrevated at this world, for making me feel pressured in choosing my vocation, and what i'm going to do.

I just want to be me completely in Love with God, whoever she may be.

I am intensely finding out who she is each day.

I love the people that God has put into my life so much, if they only knew it.

I want to pursue my passions in life, i want to live my life as God wants me to live.

I'm plum tired of the pressures of this world.

Sure my weight may keep me from not being able to do some of the things that i want to.

God, if you want me to lose weight, HELP ME PLEASE!!

If i'm meant to be the overweight girl, then so be it.

But if not, please help me!!!

I can not do this alone.

I need support, I need friends who will hold me accountable. Help me Lord. I can not do this alone.

Peace and Love for now.

Peace and Joy is where it's at.

Like John Bowers said yesterday, "Satan can mimick peace, but only true peace and joy come from knowing and loving Jesus Christ."

:)

God is doing great works in me, i know that for sure.

God has great plans for my life, I am slowly beginning to realize this, and discern His plan for my life.

I am slowly beginning to discern my vocation in God's will.

Please pray for me, that i may be silent and still and hear God's voice through all of this chaos.

Please pray for my family that they would understand and support me, whatever my choice and God's will is.

Peace to you for now.

new year, new changes.

So the new year has begun, and as life would have it, i got sick on day 2. ha. shocking, right? i know i know. But I'm starting to feel better so yay. I'm ready to stick to my life style changes, and follow-up them through. I think i'm more likely to follow-up them through if i call them lifestyle changes, and not new years resolutions. New years resolutions seem to fail not ling into the new year.

God indeed has great things in store for me. I found out this week that i'm going to be a bridesmaid for one of my best friends weddings next January! I am so excited for that. I want to finally get hold of my weight, and my health, and be the woman that God wants me to be.

I'm so tired of being slowed down, not being able to shop where i want, having the feeling always staring at me. I want to be who i am underneath the layers of hiding, the layers of emotional eating.

I'm so excited for the change to unravel and to take place.
I am already beautiful, and i'm going to be even more beautiful.

I'm going to finally have everything i ever wanted.

I am so thankful to my faithful reader, bella :)

until next time....

beauty.

As seen on a friend's blog –
"GK Chesterton's definition of a saint lies on my heart again. He says a saint is one who exaggerates what the world neglects. If I could choose one great gift that the world is neglecting I would have to choose feminine energy. It is what we need to save the world. It is what we need to be saints. Feminine energy is powerful because it is pure presence--gentle yet firm. It is an energy that gives warmth, comfort, and spirit simply by its presence. It receives rather than takes. It invites rather than demands. It unfolds rather than controls. It empowers rather than overpowers. It finds itself in being rather than in doing. Feminine energy shows her best face in leisure. She doesn't take time. She has time. She has time to be. This world is starving for this energy. It is part of the fire Christ came to cast on the earth-- a slow flame that burns from within and gradually transforms what it touches, precisely because it touches rather than clutches."
– A Tree Full of Angels by Macrina Wiederkehr



I love that. I have nothing more to say. :)

amazing is Our GOD!

God is pretty much amazing. He loves me so much it's unreal. He loves all of us so much it is unreal. He loves us despite our failings, He loves us despite our shortcomings. He is the only one who will love us despite our problems. He loves us where we are. He is amazing.

These 2 scripture verses have been on my Heart Lately.

1 Corinthians 10:13 -- No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.

Romans 12: 1-2, 9-21
Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.

Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.

Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord. 20On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."

Last weekend i went on a women's retreat with Our Lady of Sorrows sisters at their Convent in Alexandria. God opened up my eyes in so many ways. IN the past i had thought about a calling to the religious life, but i just blew it off as i was scared about that and i did not feel that God was calling me there. I still do not think that God is calling me there. However, I am not scared of the call to religious life. I am open to this calling. This is a beautiful calling. Some are made for it indeed, others are not. I am still discerning where God is calilng me -- single life, religious life, or married life. I do know that i want to get married, have a husband, and start my own family for as long as i can remember. God has put this on my heart for a reason i am sure of that. Discernment is difficult indeed, discerning God's voice through the noise of everyday life is difficult for me. Please pray for me that i can discern God's call in my life and in my heart, so that i may hear Him more clearly.