April already?

Wow! It's been almost 3 months! I wish i knew where God was leading me and where God wants me! All i can do is pray, pray, and then pray some more! I want to much to be a mother and having a loving and committed husband and family, i still on the otherhand still feel called at times to be a Sister. I love the accountability and schedule and pray life of community.

Life sure is interesting. BEing a school does not leave a whole lot of room for discernment or prayer life for that matter. So prayers would be greatly appreciated.

Still trying to grow in holiness. I love being the only virgin in my class at school, it's something i love and highly value, and would not give it up for anything! It's a wonderful gift that God has blessed to me have.

nursing school

ahhhhh school is crazy and stressful! oh boy! 2.5 weeks until Mardi Gras! YAY! Praise God for the wonderfulness that is Mardi Gras and the beginning of Lent! yay! And then clinicals start the week after Mardi Gras Break! OH MY GOODNESS I'm freaking out!

A nursing student friend of mine told me this today, "stick with it... you can handle anything God throws at you! he wouldnt give you a task that he didnt believe you could accomplish!"

AMEN TO THAT!

Prayers would be greatly appreciated that i will continue to perservere :)

I also have decided that i would love to do medical mission work / volunteer nursing of some kind in central / south america or Africa after school. Who knows if this is where God is leading me!

i am whack.

So i definitely inherited one of my dad and grandfather's traits. I am a very hard-headed, stubborn, and often jealous people that i know....

I am quite explosive today. I wish i had something to punch.

ha. So much for being a lady today!

me vs. them

So yesterday we took our final for Anatomy and Physiology. Boy am i glad i'm finished with that. I made an 86, the day before i wasn't sure i was going to do that well. Thanks to Christian and Heather's help i finally understand Neuro which is a wonderful thing. So we wanted to celebrate, i'd be totally fine with just having a drink or two, with my high alcohol tolerance and have lots of fun. The girls decided to proceed to a few more drinks, lacking my high alcohol tolerance, they were inebriated quite quickly. At first, they were funny. But then the obxiousness kicked in, and i wanted to kick my friends out of my car, drive off, and leave them stranded on the side of the road. whoaaaa now. That certainly is not my style. Hahaha. It would have been funny but not cool.

I realized last night that i am quite different from most people. My views, reasoning, ideas, morals, are completely different than most people. I know i have high expectations for relationsips and friendships and i'm okay with that. I'm this way for a reason, and that's totally fine by me. I wouldn't change it for a reason, well for most things at least.

where has the time gone?

Wow. So i have not written in a month. I started LPN school 4 weeks ago, and i absolutely love it. I know for sure that God has called me to be a nurse in some fashion, and i love it. I love the people in my class, well most of them, ha. Studying was difficult at first, but i think i'm getting the hang of it.

I know for one thing, that my prayer life has been lacking. I am just so tired at the end of the day, I fall asleep praying and don't get to it. I had been looking forward to going to FSCC's discernment retreat in November. For a chance to get away, and really pray and discernment; but it looks like i won't be going. Silly school is giving us off for veterans day which is that wednesday, and we have to make up class on the friday when i was going to fly out. And there was problems with getting my money back on the flight, so i'm just going to postpone my flight and try and go for the discernment retreat in February.

I didn't want to by myself, but i think i need to. I need to get over my fear of commitment.

Or maybe i'll just take it one step at a time.

God is guiding my path that is for sure, i wish i knew where God was leading me to!

Honduras!

Urgent Prayer request:

Violence feared in Tegucigalpa today

Please pray and sacrifice with me for the people of Honduras today (Monday). Mass demonstrations are expected in the capital city and throughout the country, and Zelaya has been inciting his followers to riot.

(Check the blog for a more detailed update.)

Our Lady Help of Christians, pray for us!

http://witnessinghope.wordpress.com/

Zelaya has asked his supporters to take to the streets today (Monday) in what he says will be “peaceful” marches to commemorate the three-month anniversary of his removal from power. Since the zelayistas have proven themselves to be anything but peaceful, the Honduran government has issued a decree that temporarily limits certain civil liberties: unauthorized public gatherings have been outlawed, police have been given permission to make arrests without a warrant, and the pro-Zelaya television channel has been temporarily taken off the air.

Sounds to me like they’re doing what they can to keep the peace – but once again, the media have twisted the facts and focused all of their attention on the fact that Interim President Micheletti has issued a decree that infringes upon the essential civil rights of Honduran citizens.

Please pray with me… that God would spare the innocent people of Honduras and strengthen their faith, that He would give her leaders wisdom in these trying times, that He would convert the hearts of those who would resort to violence and forgive the sins of those who have turned away from Him.

“Arise, O Lord; O God, lift up your hand; forget not the poor! … O Lord, You will hear the desire of the meek; You will strengthen their heart, You will incline your ear to do justice…” (Psalm 10:12, 17-18)

discernment retreat

So i have signed up to a discernment retreat in November with the Franciscan Sisters of Christian Charity at their motherhouse in Manitowoc, Wisconsin. I am quite excited to see where God is calling and leading me.

I know that He is doing great things in my life, and in the lives of those around me.

I am quite excited about being in Wisconsin in November, it will be COLDDDDD. There might possibly be snow which i am excited about.

I have concerns about telling the people in my life who are not religious about my discerning religious life. Any advice / suggestions would be appreciated!