whoa. major realizations this weekend.

So i'm moving to Austin in 5 months or there abouts, and i'm soooo excited.
New friends, new adventures, new city to figure out, new people to love where they're at.

I need to work on somethings myself. I'd really been slacking on my weight loss the last month, school has been a majorrrrr stressor, and will continue to be until i pass NCLEX-PN and get a job! So i've got to learn to handle my emotions and stress in the RIGHT WAY. But this weekend in Austin, was a major realization for me in several ways.

I'm tired of being the fat sister, i'm tired of having to shop in the fat people store, i'm tired of feeling like people are staring at me, and i'm just plain tired of being lazy, and not having any energy to do anything, and i'm tired of being cranky when i'm with my family, due to their wanting to do things, and me wanting to be lazy, eat, or sleep. ENOUGH. I've had enough of this! And whoa that was a seriously awesome run-on sentence :)

So back to commitment, and asking God for the grace and courage each day to persevere, and to not stuff my face emotionally. So far the last 2 days since i've been home have been great. I normally when i get home sit in the living room and veg out, but the last 2 days even when i walk through the living room, i feel tempted to eat my face off, so i am doing my best to avoid that temptation, and staying away from the living room / kitchen as much as possible!

I'll be moving to a city, and i want to have a fresh start. I want to be who God created me to be, and not just some lazy person. I'm ready to be free, and loving, and happy and genuine about it, and not just faking it. Okay so i don't fake it normally, but lately i've just been way stressed out, and have not wanted to hangout or go anywhere. Not cool. Not me.

As always, frequent encouragement is greatly appreciated :)

off the chest.

So it's been quite a while, dear blog.
LPN school has kept me crazy busy but i surely love it and will continue to keep me busy for the next 6 months until graduation, and i study for and pass the NCLEX! yays.

Just felt like i needed to get some things off my chest.
Life is great. I've decided that after graduation i'm moving to Austin! I'm very much excited about this new adventure, and life, and exciting things that will be going on.
Louisiana is great, don't get me wrong, but i feel like it's something that i need to do. I don't want to look back on life and have any regrets. SO go big or go home!

But on the other hand ... lately i've been having some frustration issues with my close friends. They're either married and pregnant, or following God's call to a religious or consecrated vocation. I feel very alone at times, and not included. I feel like they all have these great plans set out and know what they want to do. And i just get upset and aggrevated, and i feel that i get left out, and no one really wants to spend time with me.. I feel at times, that everyone else is just too busy for me.

but that's just my frustrations as of late. Oh well, life goes on and i'll manage. I'm just slightly nervous about making new friends in Austin, good like my best friends here. I'll just have to find a place i belong, which i think i found. Thank you, http://www.catholic20somethings.com/ for hopefully that place for me to belong :)

I'm aching for adventure and new fun, can't wait to rock this shit!

happy weekend.
keep it real, blogsphere.

life changes :)

Well some things in my life have happened lately, and i've decided that i seriously need to take a look at some things and make some changes. So i'm starting one step at a time and taking it one day at a time.

I've finally come to realize that i have a problem with food, and this is the first step to fixing the problem. I've got fed up with it, and an doing something about it. One day a time, one step at a time. Losing one pound at a time the right way, is the only way to make any lasting change.

So here's to making lasting and lifestyle changes.

More to come later .....

+Brittany

April already?

Wow! It's been almost 3 months! I wish i knew where God was leading me and where God wants me! All i can do is pray, pray, and then pray some more! I want to much to be a mother and having a loving and committed husband and family, i still on the otherhand still feel called at times to be a Sister. I love the accountability and schedule and pray life of community.

Life sure is interesting. BEing a school does not leave a whole lot of room for discernment or prayer life for that matter. So prayers would be greatly appreciated.

Still trying to grow in holiness. I love being the only virgin in my class at school, it's something i love and highly value, and would not give it up for anything! It's a wonderful gift that God has blessed to me have.

nursing school

ahhhhh school is crazy and stressful! oh boy! 2.5 weeks until Mardi Gras! YAY! Praise God for the wonderfulness that is Mardi Gras and the beginning of Lent! yay! And then clinicals start the week after Mardi Gras Break! OH MY GOODNESS I'm freaking out!

A nursing student friend of mine told me this today, "stick with it... you can handle anything God throws at you! he wouldnt give you a task that he didnt believe you could accomplish!"

AMEN TO THAT!

Prayers would be greatly appreciated that i will continue to perservere :)

I also have decided that i would love to do medical mission work / volunteer nursing of some kind in central / south america or Africa after school. Who knows if this is where God is leading me!

i am whack.

So i definitely inherited one of my dad and grandfather's traits. I am a very hard-headed, stubborn, and often jealous people that i know....

I am quite explosive today. I wish i had something to punch.

ha. So much for being a lady today!

me vs. them

So yesterday we took our final for Anatomy and Physiology. Boy am i glad i'm finished with that. I made an 86, the day before i wasn't sure i was going to do that well. Thanks to Christian and Heather's help i finally understand Neuro which is a wonderful thing. So we wanted to celebrate, i'd be totally fine with just having a drink or two, with my high alcohol tolerance and have lots of fun. The girls decided to proceed to a few more drinks, lacking my high alcohol tolerance, they were inebriated quite quickly. At first, they were funny. But then the obxiousness kicked in, and i wanted to kick my friends out of my car, drive off, and leave them stranded on the side of the road. whoaaaa now. That certainly is not my style. Hahaha. It would have been funny but not cool.

I realized last night that i am quite different from most people. My views, reasoning, ideas, morals, are completely different than most people. I know i have high expectations for relationsips and friendships and i'm okay with that. I'm this way for a reason, and that's totally fine by me. I wouldn't change it for a reason, well for most things at least.